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sisigwithrice


PAG + SISI + G!!!

ayoko nang mag sorry


Capricious
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sisigwithrice
Sometimes you do something stupid and call it whimsical.
You get stuck on one thing, can't move on and fool yourself that you're "thinking on it".
You take everyday events and things and call it a sign.

Sometimes you want something so much, you confuse infatuation with love.

You want, you take, you spend, and though you're fooled you have everything,
you're left with nothing for yourself.

You take one step forward, two steps back, and stare at the spot where you used to be and wonder:
"Is that really where I want to be?"

fuck this shit!
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sisigwithrice
I need to get away. from the city, from work, from people,-- just somewhere where I can sustain myself for a few months. Do nothing all day but read books, go jogging, hike or something, keep myself distracted, alone, and technology free. I'm sick of sitting down, staring at a monitor and getting FAT all day. I'm tired of exerting effort into things that doesn't even deserve my love and attention but I EXERT AWAY ANYWAY only to get disappointed anyway because people-- they want to undermine you and pass all the blame unto your fucking LAP! and expect you to be all smiles and GLITTERS!! AND SHIMMERY SHINING SPLENDID AND SHIT!!!

fucking universe should give me a comma. LOTS OF COMMAS!!!

deactivist!
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sisigwithrice
Stress.

I hate talking to activists. Somehow, no matter how sincere you are, it always turns ugly. No matter how much you try NOT to trample on something, you always end up trampling on SOMETHING! SOMEHOW! They also always have this habit of pointing out irrelevant things that you've mentioned in passing and suddenly it's irrelevant when you give a reply then they end with another thing! something you guys didn't even start on. I swear, half of the time I just don't want to reply anymore. sratch that. MOST of the time. I'm fed up. I'm never striking a conversation with an activist no matter how sincerely concerned I am. WHICH IS RARELY SINCE I DON'T GIVE SHIT ABOUT NEWS AND THE PAPER AND SHIT! *sigh*

sometimes I get the feeling that some activists are just in it for the intellectual masturbation.

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Missed out on a day of work.. got kinda sick??? "kinda" sick coz it wasn't a full blown fever. but the fever was kinda there already.. kinda taxiing to a possible take-off. So spent a day to hit the breaks. worked! but now I'm up to *here* with all these things I've got to finish for work. :c

in other news, feeling kinda horny right now. WHAT!?!?!
master plan to drive away any possible commenters: SUCCESSFUL!!!

oil-crusted salmon
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sisigwithrice
mixed emotions.

my chest feels like a blender. and my head is it's cover-that-doesn't-seem-to-fit-right-so-it-kind-of-spills-a-bit-and-makes-a-bit-of-a-mess.

I'm easily swayed. I decided at first glance that I'll just have fun with this, and not get invested in any way but now it seems like my body is betraying me. I've been messing up at work, I can't concentrate. I feel so shallow and fickle.

I'm happy too though. But wasn't able to follow through. I don't usually do anyways.

There was this point during TOE's set where I wondered what the fuck I've been doing with my life. I want to be up there not down here; hung over, stuck up, crushed, caged, with work at 8.

I need a vacation.

Maybe that was what she was. Maybe she was my vacation as much as I was her's. I guess I just need a longer one then. or an ACTUAL vacation. The kind where you "find yourself".

I need a vacation.

alone again (naturally) - LSS
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sisigwithrice
I've been having an i-pod and a book for company these past few days and it's been wonderful! But I'm kind of fearing the day I finish the book and I run out of new things to listen to. Then it's back to stuffing my face with food again. oh, joy. -_-

walang subject
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sisigwithrice
a lonely scene with you would be staring at the heavens
pointing at invisible lines and counting stars that dash by.
under the astral shower of a clear night's sky.
you may think that they're a chance to wish for something new
but baby they're just the bit's and pieces of me,
burning in your atmosphere, trying to get in;
in to the big blue. into you.

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sayang yung manila hotel gig. sana mas maaga ako sinabihan. :c
would have been great.

walang subject
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sisigwithrice
two hearts beating- beating each other up black and blue. it's like a midget left little purple midget steps across your chest. or tiny wine-makers fresh from the vineyards. two hearts sparring. sparing each other some blows. holding back a punch, holding back a truth. lies so painless in the now but throbbing come the morrow. two hearts, two hearts. an odd time romance. one, a beat so inconsistent. the other, subconsciously syncopated. heart-strings that are plucked and strummed resonating from an otherwise empty chest. a brutal song we could make. and a metronome is all it would take.

hahahahahaha! random shit. :)) thank you sabaw brain.

in other news, THERE'S THIS THING--!!! joke. there is no other news. my life's boring.

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sisigwithrice
karma's a bitch. she doesn't show her face here no more.
your snake-eyes have been leaving dead bodies around the floor.
you've got 7s when you should be getting 2s.
karma's a whore and she doesn't show her face here no more.
karma don't live here no more.

moon river-- huuwwaaaaayyydeerrrdan a mile!!!
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sisigwithrice


got inked! :D ate's delayed birthday gift! :D
just in case you're wondering, that's the symbol for water-bending from avatar the last air-bender.





and look! matching kami! :D kaso yung kay ate meron pa nung sa northern water tribe. yung akin wala. :D

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excited na akong makita siya pag gumaling na siya. :D
tas next project ay yung stars tattoo ko. :D

hahahaha!!! :))
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sisigwithrice


"oh shit.." hahahha!

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